Thursday, June 23, 2011

THORNY GRUDGE


My throat indeed was hurting...

PRIDE to large a lump 2 slide down my oesophagus.

Wandering for solace, I was fueled by RETALIATION'S gas.

Slamming on CALM'S brake pedal, I found out I could not come to a halt... RAGE had a toll on me.

Accompanied by a big bang, was the skidding tyres of SELF CONTROL.

Salvaged by MERCY'S air bag, I was placed on the stretcher of REGRET.

Wheeled into the theater of DESTRUCTION, I had REALITY come carry out the operation.

After a period of unconsciousness; REMORSE blazing beam dawned on me.

Hovering over me were the press of FLASH BACKS.

Bowing my head in shame, I adviced the audience; 'of all flowers in life's garden, they should avoid plucking the GRUDGE because of the countless number of THORNS on HER stem'.

LIKE THE THORNY GRUDGE, HELL INDEED HAS NO FURY LIKE A WOMAN SCORNED.

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Her eyes were as two northern stars.
Sparkles glittering amidst the sky of her sockets.
Reaching out for me, she grabbed me planted a peck on the soil of my dimpled cheek.
Thank you! She said in loud reverberation which still echoes in my mind.

Reaching for her cell, she pushed a speed dial...
Guess what mom? He just proposed.
Rocking my boat a lil, were the hands of her mother's voice, sustained in joyous rythm.
Snorting almost in audibly, I said; 'I wonder whom I proposed too...'.

Those moments remained precious cos I could remember those lovely glitters in her eyes, bright like the diamond ring I slowly pushed into her fingers.
What a child i thought I saw in such grown lady until this moment.

I bet, you could almost predict the Tsunami...
It was a great crash in her world.
The flood of scandal accompanied by the winds of libel swept every life in her.
The proofs were convincing and the allegations; flawless.

Every single bit of life was slowly drained out of me.
For a moment, i felt i was drowning in folly's muddy canal.
The cork of my bottled Assets: Trust, Love, Affection, Admiration, Respect, Value... was momentarily unscrewed; thereafter, Evaporation.

Tears flooded the gates of my eyes while reading the e-mail copied to me.
I managed to drive myself home without wiper blades to dry the shield of my eyes-screen.

At the middle of our living room, I met her sitting in pool of her tears.
I checked my wallet only to discover the last pill of my sympathy waz exhausted.
Oh the disgust, making a horrible grotesque on my face
Beams of rage gushed from my eyes, dark and cold enough to put to flight a grizzly bear in fright.

Taking closer steps towards her direction, I felt I was carried by flaming wings of fury.
Steam cripped out of my nostrils even at 15 degree celcius produced by the 3 Horse Power split in my air tight living room.

The strength of an herculean, flowed down my hands.
So much that i fought hard against it forming a fist.
Shivering from the cold, she motioned towards me.
Her eyes spoke innocence and for a moment I suffered a short memory loss.

Sobbing in anguish's bar, she had her arms wide strectch towards me, like our 2 year old daughter, all she saw was a father, a lover and a friend in me; a fotress who would shield her from her adversaries arrow.

At our moment of impact, all i offered was ice frost shoulders, pushing her to the side.
'How could you! How could you!' I said, nodding my head in dispair.
A better alternative, i quickly thought, walking out on her, heading straight to our bedroom.

she couldn't move an inch... Like she was frozen in shocks therapy.
Her heart beat paused for few seconds.
She knew there was no point living.
Crawling to our bedroom just to bid me goodbye, she met me in my own pool of tears.

Silence broke out in a wild noise...
'I remember how much joy you brought to me when I proposed, i could feel the joy expressed from the heart of a child. But it seems with great joy indeed, comes great sorrow'.

Pausing for a little while to wipe the flu flowing down my nostrils, I continued; 'you meant and still mean the whole world to me but for this time. Our Affair was indeed safe haven. I promised I wont let anything come between us but I breached that by entertaining Doubt and her entourage'.

Reaching out to her, I said 'I'm sorry i failed you. I could afford you a diamond ring, and the best money could afford but failed to give you this priceless gift I should have from the onset...'.

'Here baby, i'm kicking Doubt and her entourage out of the window with my left hands and on the right is this priceless gift often ignored by many... 'The Benefit of Doubt''.

It wasn't really easy for the next few months but the good news was; she was vindicated from all allegations.